Friday, July 11, 2014

What I WISH I knew...

I’m writing this at 6:30am.  Archer has just gone down for his first morning nap. Or decided to extend his already rocky nights sleep. I’m not sure. What I DO know is that I’m on my second cup of coffee, I just heard Axel whining in his room and I’m crossing fingers and toes that I can write out my first blog post in MONTHS. Because, yeah… I’m a SAHM now. I thought I’d have oodles of time to blog.

*crickets chirping*

So, in typical list-style, here are ten things that I wish I REALLY understood before taking on this whole stay-at-home mom gig.

  1. You won’t have any extra time to do anything.  It warrants repeating: YOU WILL NOT HAVE ANY EXTRA TIME! What in the world was I thinking?!?! My na├»ve, pregnant self said several months ago, “Being at home will give me a great opportunity to sew, make things for Etsy and start using my long-arm quilter! I can knit, and grow a garden, cure cancer and end world hunger!”  Trust me, none of those things are happening.  These days taking a shower is considered an extra – it doesn’t always happen!
  2. Your house won’t be clean.  I try. Oh dear, do I try. I’m constantly hunched over, picking things off the floor. My dishwasher and washing machine run daily. But there just seems to be a layer of clutter on every flat surface of the house. Factor in three cats and a dog and you’ve got a recipe for disaster. And with an infant desperately trying to crawl, well, ick.
  3. The baby will always choose a dog toy to teeth on instead of the million brightly colored baby toys purchased for just that.  Archer was happily chewing on Lucy’s nasty, crusty, flat, 4-year old stuffed squirrel last night. I didn’t even care. Here kid, want one with a squeaker?
  4. Breast-feeding is hard. There will be another post on that, because seriously. H-A-R-D
  5. You will lose track of days. I find myself saying a lot, “Wait, what day is it?” Especially now that it is summer vacation for AJ.
  6. Your job doesn’t end. Ever. Evvvvveeerrrrrrrrr…  I am on 24-7. There is rarely a time that someone doesn’t need something from me. It’s exhausting. Which leads me to:
  7. You will lose your shit. Seriously. Maybe once a day. Maybe twice. It’s a lot of pressure to keep 2 little ones alive on the daily. Reading books, wiping butts, trying to feed them healthy foods, etc. Doesn't seem like a big deal, but it is. Oh, it is.
  8. You husband is helping, even if it doesn’t seem like it. Poor Hubs, he tries his best but there are some times where I feel like he’s not nearly as invested as I am. And maybe he’s not. He’s got the whole “…put the bacon on the table…” job. That’s a lot to think about.
  9. You will miss feeling useful.  I mean, I guess I feel useful at home, but for me, working outside of the home gave me a sense of purpose that I didn’t know I had until I didn’t have it anymore. I’d like to think that I helped people in the almost 20 years I was employed at the College. When I gave that up to stay at home with my kids, I did it happily. But I still miss it.
  10. You will feel like you will never sleep again.  My sleep is so broken and sporadic that I feel like I can’t wait for the day I can shove a frozen waffle and the TV remote at the kids and go back to sleep for a couple hours.  I know that this is a small, teeny-tiny slice of time in my SAHM life, but man, I miss sleeping uninterrupted.



My new role in this family has changed. It’s not an easy job; it’s often exhausting, dirty, thankless and frustrating. But I’m still so happy that I chose it.
July 4, 2014